I get to watch a dear friend get baptized today. It always fills me with such great joy to have the opportunity to watch people take such an important step in life. Such happiness and deep joy and gratitude is unprecedented and incredible. I love that shadow of joy to come. I know it only comes through obedience to God’s will.

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You are good. But it is not enough just to be good. You must be good for something. You must contribute good to the world. The world must be a better place for your presence. And the good that is in you must be spread to others.
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I've been following your blog for about a year and I must say I'm really proud if you! Good luck!!! :)

Thank you so much! Messages like this are always such a blessing. They remind me of where I was this time last year. A year ago tomorrow I decided to go back to church for the first time. I spoke to my bishop. I wanted to join the church. This year has been hard, of course, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. I know that this church is true, and that I have been able to feel of God’s love more here than I have been able to anywhere else. I’m so grateful for that.

Thank you, thank you, thank you so much.

06.9
A Personal Account

When I was fifteen years old I decided I wanted to serve a mission. The idea always excited me and I looked forward to doing it when I became of age. When the age of sister missionaries was lowered, the possibility became very real. I then experienced some things that pushed me away from the church for about a year and a half, but I returned soon after, and I was gung ho, once again preparing to serve a mission.
A few months ago, I started my papers. I had been wavering on the issue for a couple weeks and decided to do something instead of just debating. Almost immediately I was pushed back with opposition. I found myself not being able to focus in lessons with missionaries, getting frustrated with investigators, and questioning my ability as an honest teacher when I struggled with so many gospel standards. I stepped away from the mission papers, confused and wanting answers.
Then, someone appeared. He was a return missionary from right around the time I got baptized. He was a spiritual giant and funny and intelligent, and don’t let me forget, SUPER CUTE. So, I guess, I had known him for a while but at this point, he and I expressed romantic inclinations toward one another. Things started to develop between us and I thought that maybe this was the answer. Maybe this is why I wasn’t supposed to go on a mission after all. At first I was a little upset but quickly resolved to be okay with it, as this was a great thing, too.
Not a few weeks had passed before I started receiving promptings again. I was terrified to tell him because I didn’t want him to run away just because I was getting these again, but I told him and he just told me to listen. He told me that God has a plan for me but if my will is different than His and I want something bad enough, he’s not going to stop me. If I wanted this boy more than I wanted the mission, Heavenly Father was not going to force me. He encouraged me to pray and listen closely to the promptings of the Holy Ghost, but I was afraid because I knew exactly what those would be. So I began to dawdle. I was on the fence about everything, and it started with the mission and got bigger and bigger until the debates were no longer whether or not I should serve a mission, but whether or not I should even be a member of the church. When I expressed these concerns to a missionary who is one of my dearest friends, he gave me a book called The God Who Weeps. In this book I found a quote that said, “If we linger in indecision…we will not perish. We will simply miss an opportunity to act decisively in the absence of certainty, and show that our fear of error is greater than our love of truth.” This pierced my soul, almost to the point where I could relate with Joseph Smith in his experience with James 1:5. I understood from this excerpt that if I really did have a desire for truth or to love God, I needed to make a decision. I couldn’t simply be acted upon, I needed to act. As I was reading this book, I was actually on my way to Utah to see this boy. We spend a lot of time together during the brief time I was there and we spent a fair amount of that time talking about the mission. He acknowledged that he was in no position to receive revelation for me, but every time he thought about me, the word “mission” came to his mind, and that he had been instructed not to get in the way of me serving a mission. We both came to an agreement that I had been called. I decided from this point that it was time to prepare once again to serve. When I got home, I found a few select people who are willing to step on my toes and aren’t afraid of a little push-back when I get scared or unmotivated. I began to pray for courage and strength as I go into these unknown territories, knowing only that the Lord loves me and wouldn’t ask me to do anything I was incapable of. I started striving to become more humble, to repent willingly. Now I am at this point. I’m talking to my branch president either tomorrow or Wednesday. I’ll have a time frame on it after that meeting, and I’ll know by when I will be ready to leave.

I know very clearly that if we do not follow the Lord’s will because we are afraid, we are saying to Him that we do not trust Him enough to give us what we want or better. I know that he’s not going to let us down. I know that God loves us so much that He weeps over our pain, whether from sin or otherwise. He craves our company, he is jealous for our affection. That’s why we have the restored gospel—to show the never-ending, all-encompassing love that our Heavenly Father has been showing for mankind since the beginning of time. He loves us so perfectly, so unfathomably, that I know that He would never ask me to perform a task that was beyond my capacity to perform.

I know that He lives because I can feel the Spirit testifying inside of me right now. I know that He loves me, and loves each of us individually. He knows the quirks that make us unique and He loves those things. He made us that way. I am so grateful for a loving Father and a strengthening knowledge of things to come.

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Anonymous
I'm sorry this is probably awfully annoying but I did something I don't like an feel awfully crumby and yeah

Come off anon and talk to me privately. It’s much easier that way. :)

23.7
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Hey Jordan, I hope your well :) I just wanted to say thank you and tell you that you're so important. And I spose I'm proud of you, though I don't know why, you've helped me a lot and I have a high respect for you because you are so wonder and, thank you.

Thank you thank you thank you! What a wonderful message to come back to. I appreciate it

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"God doesn’t love us because we are good, God loves us because He is good."
My mission president said this in stake conference a couple weeks ago, and I can’t help but just think about how true that is. It’s been really relevant in my life for the past couple of days. I’ve always felt like Heavenly Father was kind of a performance-based father and that He would only love me if I followed His commandments, but I’ve come to a knowledge that he loves me all the time, regardless of the decisions I make and I am so grateful for that. Nothing can bar my Heavenly Father’s love for me which inspires me to work toward letting nothing bar my love for Him.

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Anonymous
What do you think of dying your hair colors like blue or such?

I don’t think that it’s a problem, but I don’t recommend going to the temple with irreverent hues of hair. That’s my opinion, I don’t know if there’s any church guidelines on hair colors.

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I feel kind of depressed because I'm at EFY and even tho I thought I did a pretty good job at being loud and making friends I feel really discouraged because I don't feel as if I'm in the group and it kind of makes me sad and resent spending any sort of time with them...

I don’t really know why this happens sometimes, but I think it has something to do with our personalities. Namely introversion. It’s hard to be with a group of people all the time, especially if you don’t thrive in that sort of a social situation. I would recommend prayer to get through the trial, and also trying to communicate and form stronger bonds with just one or two people. It’s always easier to attend something with a few people you care deeply about :) most importantly, focus on the spirit and try your best to let whatever experiences you have bring you closer to Christ :) best of luck!

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