Over the past few weeks I’ve found myself struggling a lot with my testimony of The Book of Mormon, Joseph Smith, and the Restoration. I haven’t really talked to anyone about it because it scares me to vocalize those doubts; it’s like the moment I say something about it, Satan has me in his grasp. So I was reading one day through Enos and Jarom and Omni, and in the middle of Omni I felt like I should really pray to know if the Book of Mormon was true, if Joseph Smith was a prophet, and if Thomas S. Monson is the prophet on the earth today. I immediately prayed and asked those things and then not two verses later I ran into this:
"…wherefore, I shall deliver up these plates unto him, exhorting all men to come unto God, the Holy One of Israel, and believe in prophesying, and in revelations, and in the ministering of angels,and in the gift of speaking with tongues, and in the gift of interpreting languages, and in all things
which are good; for there is nothing which is good save it comes from the Lord: and that which is evil cometh from the devil.” (a portion of Omni verse 25)
I felt like Heavenly Father was telling me this. It was not coincidence that I prayed about the things I’d been doubting and then I immediately read something telling me to believe in those things. Not only that, but the end of this verse tells us that all that is good comes from the Lord. This work is good. The Book of Mormon is good. The members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints strive to do good continually and to be a loving and an accepting people.
I know that Heavenly Father answers our prayers and that if we follow the impressions He gives to us we will not be led astray.
This week we have two more baptisms happening in my branch and I just
I can’t believe how quickly the work is moving and it amazes me how quickly people are willing to change their whole lives to receive the blessings of the gospel. It always strengthens my testimony to see how far people have come and how far they are willing to go to receive the gifts this church brings.
At institute this week my teacher said that when people ask him why he does/doesn’t do specific things, he thinks or says that they would or wouldn’t do the same things if they knew who they were. If I truly knew that I was a beloved daughter of a perfect Heavenly Father, I wouldn’t intentionally do so much bad and would strive to do more good. After that I was thinking about how God is always present, and a friend shared an experience where her dad was driving behind her. She normally goes fast on country roads, but he was in her rearview mirror and she knew he wouldn’t be happy if she was going that fast, so she went the speed limit. Our Heavenly Father is ALWAYS in our rearview mirror. We should always remember who we are and that He is always present.
Does it amaze you to know that we were held back to come forth at THIS specific time, when we know the gospel will never again fade from the earth? We are the hope of Israel. When the prophets of old watched their people apostatize, they died waiting for our time to come. We’re not waiting for anyone this time. We’re it, and all of those amazing people are counting on us. Heavenly Father will never leave us, he’ll always keep his end of our covenants. We are strong enough, that’s why we were chosen. Remember that you’re important and were chosen for this time. You are meant to be here.
The more time I spend with missionaries teaching and learning, the more I feel my testimony of missionary work growing. I know that missionary work is imperative, not just to those who are being taught but also to those who are teaching. I can testify that as I have prayed for missionary experiences I have been able to speak to people about the gospel in a way that causes me to grow and causes them to learn. I have had the pleasure of bringing several friends to church and watching them change and grow as Heavenly Father works in their lives. This is truly a marvelous work.
Remember that God doesn't always give or take away things, even though we perceive it that way. Make a list of five major differences between the times you feel the Spirit in abundance, and the times you don't. If they're things you can change, work on them. If not, pray for the strength to endure those hard times.
That’s so true. Thank you for your insight.
I’ve heard it said that God gives us a lot of spiritual experiences, and then there’s a time that it doesn’t come so easily so that we can be tested. It’s not doctrine I don’t think, but I believe it’s a good way to look at it.
That’s actually true, I’ve written about this before. Thanks for the reminder :)
I’ve been going through a time where I feel the spirit in abundance at times and other times I can barely feel it at all. It’s like I’m on a spiritual roller coaster and I’m not exactly sure why. Advice would be appreciated, if you have any.
I do know that Heavenly Father loves all of His children, and that He loves me, and that whatever is happening right now will work out.
Jordan, I feel you om the whole mission thing. Ever since I started lessons ive had a feeling I should. My missionaries think I should, Im stuck because I don't know what my family would think.
FOLLOW THOSE PROMPTINGS. They are so important. I’m not one hundred percent positive and I felt impressed that I should wait to properly announce it until after my patriarchal blessing, but it’s seriously such a blessing to be able to teach other people and if you’ve been feeling that way for a long time that means that Heavenly Father has HUGE things in store for you as a missionary. As far as your family, I feel the same way about my mom, and they’re just concerned for us and love us but the Lord will provide, both for us and also for them. I hope you decide to serve a mission and that your family will love and support you like families should. :)
I’ve prayed about it a lot and talked to several different missionaries and I think that Heavenly Father wants me to serve a mission. I’m pretty nervous about all of it but I’m going to keep praying and studying and hopefully the answer will be cemented into my life by the time I intend to start my papers. I’m ready to be a servant to the Lord, whatever that looks like for me.